Well the next cycle is getting closer and closer.
The closer it gets the more I want to wait another month.
Am I going to want to put it off forever?
Do I just go ahead and do it?
Will I ever be ready?
I’m scared I might never have another baby and I’m scared I will get pg again and that baby will die as well.
A few people have said to me ‘ don’t cycle again unless you know you can cope with another loss’.
Who gets up and goes ‘ Yup I can cope with another dead baby’?
That’s just not normal to think like that.
I turn 31 in a few weeks. I always said I wanted to have 3 kids by the time I was 30.
Then I said I would be happy to just have one. Well I got my one. My one little precious angel. I must have forgot to say I wanted a living, happy and healthy baby by the time I was 30. Silly me!
I hope to have baby number 2 by the time I’m 32. But I would like to state for the record, that I would like this one to live. To be a happy, health chubby bub. PLEASE
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