Thankyou & Small Update On ‘Baby Quest’

Thank you all so much for all the lovely comments about Georgia.  (To those who have been praying for us, yes I know I don’t believe but I still think its VERY nice of you all to include us in your prays.  So thank you for that also)
I do have to agree with you all.  Georgia does look just like Zak.  She has his dimple, his hair and his nose and you would think his ears were taken from him and glued to her head.  Its very bitter sweet to see your new baby look so much like the baby you don’t have living with you.  I try not to get upset when I look at her but sometimes its very hard.
We even have photos of her that are the same photo we have of Zak.  Same position, looking just like they could be the same baby.  I guess the biggest thing I’m having trouble with ATM is when she is sleeping.  You know how baby’s sleep sometimes with their mouths open?  You can hear them breathing.  Something that should be the sweetest sound.  Well sometimes I look at her and for a split second I’m reminded of Zak once we took him off the ventilator.  Him lying there with his little mouth open, struggling hard to breath.  It sends a shiver down my spin and for a very quick moment I go into panic and want to vomit.
I guess these moments will forever sneak up when I least expect them.
S is still in hospital.  She has been told she will be there at least until she is 24 weeks.  So far all is ok.  Though I think she is truly bored out of her brain.  Will let you all know when I hear more.  🙂

2 Responses

  1. I know that feeling very well as Beanie is the spitting image of V. Same hair, same nose, same mouth, and I had the same feeling as you when he was asleep in a certain position. The feeling is receding as Beanie gets older and is changing a little bit. Maybe V would have changed in the same way, but I don’t know that.

  2. I think the same as Rosepetal: as Georgia grows bigger – and boy, will that happen sooner than you expect – then the stomach-chilling flashbacks should end.
    Can we have some more photos of your lovely daughter when you have a mo? I do hope that the sleepless nights aren’t too much of a ball-breaker for you. They crushed me utterly!

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